Hey there, I'm the moderator that approved your blog post; you might consider posting in Cutting & Self Injury Forum, as you won't get much (if any) interaction in the blogs.

I'm a little bit of a self-harmer, too, and on occasion I've had the desire for scars- I think a lot of us do, we just want outward signs of what we feel on the inside, I think. Even if we paradoxically don't really want scars, or other people to see them, there's still that desire for something external.

Blogs aren't often commented on, you might think about posting in the AvPD forum, sweets.

Like anyone else, you are free to choose whom you want to befriend or not. For whatever reasons, it's your freedom to do that. Don't beat yourself up for it.

And could you tell me that is this fear normal?

Please consider posting in forum, rather than in a blog, for folks to respond.